To know what can’t be explained
drove great men insane
only three angels I met in hell
know such tales to save us from ourselves
caught between heaven and earth
tears manifested and conquered by hope
in essence this is supposed to be fun
then make it so with smiles that show
beliefs are for those who believe in love
building sanctuaries seeking salvation
a place where I get along with everyone
but laugh because no one knows me
until I knew truth in its lightest of hues
I promise to stay true and build this for you
to quell tell tale signs of burdens inside
it’s the same reason we all shine
and enjoy this roller coaster called life
All Apologies
For all I said
for what I’ve done
for having too much fun
for living life like I’d never die
as if I’d never cry
Or grow bored of feelings inside
All this karma is right –
this job is where I belong for now
second and third chances
endless dances of pain
masked in joyful exuberance
estranged from the ego’s natural terrain
I’d like to get away
but right now I can’t
so I’ll embrace this concrete and steel
for this cubicle is not real
these numbers mean nothing
making higher ups something
so my spirit changes this environment
they never saw me coming
so I’ll emanate from the pearl inside
eternal light shines love for those who’ve known
and felt my night terrors as a child
they were terrified by the look in my eye
and even though they were open
my heart was sowed closed to reopen and heal
that gaping massive black hole in my soul.
Middle Class Wrath
I’d like to rip some Phd’s
and early twenty something’s
i’ve been rhyming
since before these kids were fuckin’
i look their age but i’m not
so peep this paradox
the real G’s are terrorists
with AK’s on the docks
so go ahead and test the academics
and the wild and frenetic
respect this exchange
i’m not a label-er of the game
so conscious rap:
meet those jiggy beats –
jiggy beats: move your soul feet
step out your HUNDRED K car
now you’re not hard
see me eye to eye on the middle street
my style is more E-Eighty-Five-Turbo-Electric
i’m splendid, i bounce smooth and getaway fast
with less of the slave gas
go ahead and rape my village then pillage
you’ll meet me on the scrimage – BOTTOM LINE
i am the antithesis of their design
my love is blind for those who accept me –
i’ll give you my all, then i became free from the free fall
let it go, let it show, my soul alchemize’d to gold
from chemically induced abuse
but still have respect for the OG’s
the hoes and the troops
including everybody in the loop
and the so called cream of the crop
from cops to wife beating jocks
no one is safe from the way d.i.s.c.r.e.e.t. berates
because we all have our day…
so who’s to say in essence we’re not the same
with a dark side, darth vader vibe, post traumatic
psychosomatic – i’ve managed myself to the edge and back
trust me hell’s intact
because we all politic
and make decisions real quick
that we sink the whole ship
i couldn’t read instructions
nor could they read the signs
it’s esoteric because i’ve lived by different metrics
so my bootleg mash-ups are not official
because my blood line is judicial
reversal of my masonry curse
my mom’s mom’s dad and my dad’s dad
that’s why i speak from the bottom
they’ll be toppled by autumn:
shift of the ages – returned to burning sages.